You Melted The Ice
That Was Inside Me,
Now, I Do Not Find Myself
Doubting Of The Person That I Have Become
You Are That Hope That I Was Seeking For So Long
You Are The Light Who Inspires Me To Do The Best
Though We Are
A Hundreds Miles Apart
There Is Never A Second That You Are Not In My Heart
For If The Oceans Dried And The Sky Stopped Being Blue
I,Always And Forever , Shall Adore And Cherish You
Nights gives you a sense of completion!! When the wordly affair ends and then you are with yourselve(or may be your beloved) ;-) !!
--Knitting your dreams with a a silky thread of faith and confidence
--analysing all your routine activities
--talking to yourself
--making faces in mirror
--listening to your favorite music
--turning pages of your bedtime book
--loving somebody in dreams
--dancing on your fav tune/song
--talking for hours to your beloved/friend
--wearing whatever is comfortable
--resting in all your "ajeeb-o-gareeb" postures
Why I chose this one - The blame goes to its cover and the print, that military print even in the sides of the book pages. Although I'm firm beliver of "Never judge a book by its cover" still I did fall for it :)
Well, its not about "The proposal" I received but about movie "Proposal" starring Sandra Bullock.
Every proposal be it personal/professional is a decision maker in one' life. At times when you sit back in your balcony with a cup of ginger tea and staring and feeling the rains , with a long pause and you murmurr...
I don't know if I'm getting old or that my taste is getting bad!
First question- why did I picked this up? Well the book title "Oh Shit Not Again" makes you feel that there is something different about this book and also when you read the back cover it narrates few of those interesting incident which could spice up one's life.
But alas... thats not the case!!
Book fails to spice up my life atleast!
The book starts with Beware before you read...........you may die laughing".
and I say " Beware of the book - OhShit Not Again" you may stop reading books completely!!
Its "Kuchhu" birthday tomorrow. I mean its janamasthmi.
Govinda alaa re... aalaa.. jara matki sambhal brijbala....
I don't know the reason but since childhood I'm great fan of Krishna. I remember when I was a kid , there was a "ladoo gopal" statue in our "mandir", and I used to take special care of it. His bathing, decoration and food as if he was a real friend of mine.
Just yesterday my parents reached Pune, and today morning , with morning tea we were watching "colors" channel.
No complains...but suddenly things and routine change!! Just to keep them happy! And I love it!!
Since, last three days, my mind was cribbing, it needed a new hairstyle and finally on saturday I got one! Yup now I look similar to sai baba!!Do you need a pic ( of sai baba?) ;)
Its raining like hell in Pune, god spare us atleast for a week, my parents are here and we can't go anywhere. Bad is that :(.
Planning to buy a new camera, may be then I can post some pics, the photographer inside me is cursing me a lot. I know I always see things with a different angle and it could be beautifully captured in a photograph!!
Well, whatever angle it is, life is just so beautiful capturing every angle would always be a good experience!!
How many times have you kicked yourself with the words, "Why did I do that?" Most of us have asked such a question far more often than we would like to admit.
Imagine sitting in the middle of a road and there is an oncoming car heading rapidly towards you. You have a choice of only two actions. To get out of its way and live to fight another day, or to sit where you are and be run over, which means either being badly injured, or, much worse, being killed. In that split second, you have to make a decision. If you are trying to commit suicide, your decision will be to keep sitting and hope to be killed. However, if you did not expect a car to be in your path, you will be getting out of its way pretty fast to save your life.
That was a simple illustration of why we have to make decisions: to dictate the way we wish to live by making either pleasant or unpleasant choices. Our life consists of making decisions, one way or another, they are imperative. But I think, many people deliberately prevent themselves making decisions because they cannot bear the consequences.Isn't?
Standing in between the crowd in London tubes you get lost in shades of black and grey!! Eyes buried deep into the newspaper, and ears choked with the headphones which symbolizes more of " I'm blind and deaf"
Few days back, one of my colleague narrated an incident where a girl in crowded train changed her clothes in and out and got off at one of the station and people surrounding her didnt even gave a STARE!! Well,it wasnt the exact striptease !! but may be some glimpse of skin show!!
I know they talk, they listen, they stare as well but just that they DONT REACT!!
But in this "Mind Your Own Business" world I do meet some friends who share smiles and very often "have a nice weekend/take care/bbye" greeting!!
After two years I'm back in UK... welcome back dear :))
Warning : If you have bought some dress from “Westside” and you are going shopping and might visit Westside, you don’t even think of wearing it. You could see that same colour, same design same size apparel hanging in or one of the mannequins wearing it.
You know how it feels when you are in front of a mirror image , a girl wearing same dress as yours. Its like she using your husband!! Yes the feeling the same. Am I m exaggerating? Could be…. But same dress… same colour…same design… nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
When I choose a dress, I try that it would be worn just by me. No one else have this replica. A unique dress for just so unique girl. Well, I suppose most of the girls would think that!! Or they don’t?
Well, I usually haven’t found any girl wearing same type of design as mine, but few days back when I was at Westside I saw the same dress hanging there which I bought three years back in Gurgaon. How could they come back with same design, I wonder!!
Whatever, I still think no female would like to see her mirror image in front of her. Be it just clothes image!!!
One of my friend recently complained that you are not updating your blog on regular basis. To which I answered I have so many things to write but still I don’t know but I don’t feel like writing!!
Well, any form of expression of thoughts is beautiful but somehow I wasn’t feeling to express things!! Wanted to be in my own shell. Strolling with my thoughts, knitting emotions with them and feeling them!! Just for yourself!!
Life is good if you change yourself is what I have realized!!
Well Change is always good…. Or rather that’s the only good thing in your life!!
Nowadays apart from my home land line number, I don't remember any other telephone nos. thanks to my mobile database.
yesterday, when I received one call, the person on the other side asked for my father, as he was out, I asked him to call his mobile. Now I didn't had my mobile handy with me so asked my mother - what's papa's mobile number, she said its written in the telephone directory. I asked her with what name, and she said.... under 'P' page with name papa....
I burst out laughing, but they are habitual to it, isn't.
lo papa se baat kar lo
mummy kahan hain?
aaj papa keh rahe the...
and many more....
I wonder how they used to communicate when we weren't there ;)
Whatever, thats the cutest gesture I find in couples :)
I should have posted this last week, but thanks to my laziness, well not actually laziness, but I was tied up.... with what.... some negotiations!!!
Well, last weekend was fun... we went to Divyagrah and Murud Janjeera... playing drum-charades, cards, anatakchari, beach cricket, guys had a gala time with beer and loosing money!!
Finally, I'm staying with current company!! Ahhh... that was the thing which kept me busy!!I told you options are the worst part of life. But again I was hit by it.Finally, I chose to stay with the same company!! Reason , I don't know.... its just that my heart said. Suddenly people around me have started trusting me a lot, so many expectations, client praising you, your managers praising you... suddenly you are the talk of the town, that's scares me even more !!!
I just wish, to do my work honestly and sincerely. This is one thing I have learnt from my life, if you do any thing honestly it will pay, even if you don't like it but you have to do it. Still try to do it with full dedications!! May be that's the reason I was called back :).
Now, in office there are rumors that she has been offered "lions share" !! And I could sense jealousy in many people's eye!! Ahhhhh... allah rehem kar!!
But, somethings don't change.... I did planned for my vacation and its still on track. I m at my hometown enjoying summer holidays :))
Had lost touch with IPL, or in that matter any kind of sports, the only recent update I have is of Shoaib Mallick and Sania Mirza wedding and controversy!! How irritating these news channels are!! Thankfully I m not in that profession( which at one point of time I considered as a high rated profession).
Some new things are crawling in my mind... to learn and to explore ... !!!
Life is just amazing yaar... why we get just one life I wonder :))))
Just three more days left!! And then two weeks loooong vacation and then new joining!!!
Many a times all things just fall in place as if they were planned that way!!! And then I feel great!!
This weekend we are planning for outing.. and I m bit excited as this would be my last outing with this team. So there was no plan to drop out, inspite of the fact that I may get bored..... lets see....!!
Met some very good people... I'll miss them. Although duration was just three months, saying goodbye is always sad :(. And I know I'll miss them.
Okie... that was something sad... coming back to some fun... IPL...what else could be more fun!!
'yaar kya ho raha hai yeh... dilli ke daredevils... harate hi jaa rahe hain'... Now I bet that they won't be in top 4 :P
What else guys... apart from this scorching heat!! Suddenly temp has risen like anything!!! Its terrible to step out in sun even for a minute...well... the reason is bad habit of AC and not thye heat ;). Do you agree?
There were just too many things happening in life.... new office... new BOSS, new colleagues... new crushes... a bit of hectic life... and then there was my tarot and reiki to keep me busy .... and then there were my friends... and then there was my little nephew to keep me all time busy!!! So just in that "busyness" blog was kept aside.
Finally... I m back :)
I resigned again!! Whoooaaa... last year till this time I was struggling to save my job... and within three months I dropped in my papers twice . God is always fair!!!
Anyways.... so again in April... the story would repeat...new office... new BOSS, new colleagues... new crushes... ;)
A new activity which I did... accompanying my colleague for "sutta (smoking)"... now I had many colleagues who did smoked but , nobody ever asked me for company.... but when he did... I was like fine!! Of course I was sipping tea and he was smoking... so it wasn't a bad combo... but still... I m not sure he felt comfortable or not....!! Anyways.... I guess that was the first and last time... any boy asked a girl ( non smoker) to accompany him to "suttatapri".
Suddenly ... I feel I wasted my "so many years" .... but then I feel optimistic that I still have "so many years".... hahaha....
Btw guys... I have started waking up at 6... and many a times at 5:30!!! So do give a pat on my back!!!I need it :)
IPL is starting today... so would have more "mirch-masala" to update!! I m counting on Delhi daredevils. What's your choice? And I really bet... this time it won't be deccan chargers winning IPL!!! So lets see....
And the reason is so simple.... at exact 8:55 p.m, there was some problem and "cable gone".... grrrrrr.... now seriously I realised the pleasure of having Tata Sky/whatever the other one is ( I don'tremember other names and really don't want to put pressure on my little knee to think and get an answer).
I called him at 8:57, him as in cable wallah... and he said wire cut gayahain!! aadhaghantalagega!!How could suddenly wire get cut!! I blasted on him.... (poor chap).... and also conveyed how important it was for me to watch that serial!!
On Saturday and Sunday I make a point to finish all dinner preparation and all by 8:30 and 8.00 respectively!! And so right now as I don't have anything to do... I can't keep my self busy and so I'm boiling more.
Actually , the reason for frustration is one more that they don't have a repeat telecast of this maahive and rishta.com!!!
After every 5 secs I switch on the TV. buhuhuhubooooohuu...
maafkarde..... aurlaademera cable wapas...!!!
I remember the same frustration that I actually threw remote on bed was in 1999, it was India-Pakistan match and we just had DD!!! And those people on national network were showing Parliament session instead of match. And I was boiling.......
Well... again I called him... and again they say half an hour.... its better I get myself engaged in some other work.
Jo hotahainaachekeliye!!! .... (with a sad note ofcourse)
Option is just the worst thing in life.
Getting more than one job offers, getting more than one marriage proposal, option of spending or saving, option of walking or driving, option of working or sitting idle, option of writing or dictating, option of living or dying, option of planning arrange marriage or love, option of having one or two kids and the list could continue.......
Option makes life more miserable, ofcourse it lets you enhance your decisive power but if you have ahabit of repenting, its worst.
So when there is just one option , just pick it up and go.... when you have "n" number you think...think....analyse... take suggestions..... and once you analyse all pros and cons you decide. yes this is the BEST among the worst.... but still you are not very sure if it would lead to success. Thats the ideal path we take when analysisng.... yes.... this way it would go... and this way i would be more happy.
How many of you... on going in a bakery shop wants to taste each and every pastry kept out there?thats the simplest example I could give. Once you have it only then you know that it was good or bad and if bad, not your fault. You applied all your senses to pick the best which could soothe your taste buds.
Well, I think even I m going with the same phase.... Options Options... Options....
I suppose working with Derivatives... Option has stuck with me!!!
I'm in love again, not with anyone... but with myself ;)
Again I'm getting those sweet romantic feelings of falling in love again and reason for that is ... YRF films... two soaps... Mahi ve and rishta.com.
I don't know, but I'm in love with those two soaps, rishta.com for arranging marriages and mahi ve... the cute fat girl in search of her dream boy!!
Anyways that was about me, weekend was just busy... did some shopping and also "safai"... Yes, our maid comes in daily and sweeps our floor daily but still when I sweeped in on saturday, it was like my room was not cleaned since ages.
Have some new plans... among one is to get up at 6... thats really hard!!
All other thing would fall in place if I start just following one thing of getting up at 6 am.
Life gives you so many chances... and we keep missing atleast one for sure !! But still... life moves on :)
I mean leave just after eleven days of joining , not bad at all. I'm just a champ in bunking office for unknown reasons and feeling not well with a thought of office :)
When early morning I decided not to go to office, I smsed my two managers one in pune and another in Chennai. Chennai one replied very sweetly ... oh take care get well soon with a smiley and all. And pune one just replied with two letters "OK". It seems his mobile phone had a plan of per letter charging and so he might had spent 2 paisa on new employee who is totally unproductive. ;)
Its not my fault you see, after 5 years of REST if suddenly somebody is asking me to work. How could that happen?
I had never reached office before 10:30, and here timings are 9-6. Gosh!! And to add to the misery I have my another teammate who is more like "Adarsh team member"(something similar to adarsh bahu), he comes to office before my manager and stays till 7.00pm , that too without work and Internet (I mean our office has blocked all major chats/orkut/blogging sites. how could you survive man!). And I'm the person who consider herself nothing less that a BOSS. So , I reach by 10:30 and leave by exact 6 ;).
Anyways, it would be fun to work!! Meeting new people and analysing them and cribbing about Bosses and managers, is my favourite pastime.
This idea of comparison crawled into my mind...on my way back journey to pune.
Somehow, I still feet "railways" are just the best! And there could be no comparison in terms of its merits!
I mean, it is said that by air you reduce the time of travel, and I feel I in a way it increases. As first, airport would be at the other corner of your city then you need to check in at least an hour before, then limitation of luggage, many thinks which cant be carried in your cabin baggage , then as you checked in early and you are strolling at the airport, you see so many good shops and as you are simply idle you land up buying those expensive materials and eating the delicacies as well. (Could you be live it I at Hyderabad airport had wada for just rs 80.)
Then, once you settle in on those uncomfortable seats you are served by food (at least in Air India it is mandatory), again which is not of your choice, but as a typical INDIAN MENTALITY... arrey paise diye hain... khana to padega hi... you eat it!!
Then once you landed , again wait for your luggage.... and then again your travelling time.
But there is an advantage , you could see "good air hostess" now that's just for men. What about me!!
On the other hand, with train you just spend the time more!! You have an option to catch train just 2 Min's before your departure, or even if you got late , you can ask someone to pull chain or catch it from next station (as was done in JAB WE MET). Then , train would stop usually at each station and if it doesn't, people make it stop! You can enjoy so many delicacies at a reasonable rate and not just once but infinite number of times. You get such a comfortable berth. you can stand on them, sit on them and also jump on them. ;)
I mean I don't see any "demerits" of train travel ....
Ever since I came to this guest house, I wake up at 5.00. No Suddenly I'm not changed to a religious/spiritual personality but its due to the "alarm clock".
My caretaker has two assistant, who sleep in the apartment, and as they need to cook for the whole lot they might fix up an alarm of 5.00 a.m. But , it happens that I wake up because of that irritating alarm, try to sleep by putting pillow over my ear or the quilt , but when nothing works, I open up my eyes, count up to 100 , thinking that they might wake up and switch off the sound. But all in vain.
Finally , I get up , drink water open up the door and then try to figure out where the alarm watch is kept and finally I switch it off. And what I see.. those two people who are sleeping on floor with just a bed sheet are deep in sleep and me who is not able to sleep in spite of a warm quilt, a cozy bed, and room equipped with AC/fan just due to an irritating sound being produced at a distance of 35-40 ms.
Why am I so delicate?
I have many times seen people sleeping peacefully under a tree, on a roadside (with huge traffic and honking at its best), and me ... I get up with just a pinch of a sound!!
I still envy those people who could sleep at anytime and any place!!Because I guess that's the biggest asset one could ever posses and would remain his forever!!
Yes it’s a debut novel of Kankana Basu and what a relief it’s not about IIT’s and IIM’s stories.
Actually recently crossword, Walden and many other book stores were just flooded with the IIT’s and IIM’s stories. I wonder is it because of an increase in MBA’s and IIT ians or is it because they have nothing to do so let’s write a book. And that’s the reason may be that very few docs get there book published. Now you know who works and who doesn’t. And I too belong to the latter category ;)
Anyways coming back to my Cappuccino Dusk…
The story starts silently (and a bit lengthy as well) giving you a picture of a Bengali family moving to Mumbai and then the normal “tic-tac-toe” to sustain and make a living.
And then it revolves around the five characters… four children and one mother. The Banerjee family!!
However with a slow start the story do have a good plot of Maltesh… who joins the newspaper as a cartoonist and it unfolds very well in the last chapters of cappuccino dusk.
Sadly though, none of it really comes together. At no point do you find yourself as a reader turning the pages of Cappuccino Dusk in bated breath; will Sid get his scholarship or will daughter of Head Professor get it? Will Bonny get married? Will Subroto lose his hatred for women? Will Mustafa overcome prejudices against Muslims and live happily ever after?
And then there’s the shock denouement; I won’t give it away, but it did appear suddenly, as if out of a hat. Nothing in the book leads up to that particular conclusion. Certainly it left me feeling extremely dissatisfied. But then again, perhaps life is like that.
Loyalty is now turning to be an "extinct" quality. Don't you think so?
People dont stick to a single relation, they dont stick to a single company for lifetime.
politicians don't stick to a single party.
they change there gadgets with every exciting launch
they change there cars with every new release
we are forced to change a rented house every 11 months
many who change there nationality as well.... talking about the green card holders!!
changing place... i mean relocation...
and many are there who change there SEX as well..
Yesterday I was lost completely…totally… don’t know why!!
I was in another office for some official work and wanted to use a computer… and what I did, I just came out of library,opened a door (thinking in my mind that it is a training room) until I realised that’s it’s a wash room after seeing some wash basins and then when I closed the door, I realised that it was for MEN!!!
Actually to me it was referred by my manager(as Karan Bajaj was his friend) and my friend. And so I purchased this book. But I’m now cursing myself to get the original version, I could have at least bought the pirated one ;-) . Now that’s just a joke. Actually a writer (myself…ofcourse I write blogs and so I consider myself a writer ;)) shouldn’t do this to another writer ;)
After reading this book you’ll realize that it could be better edited and instead of a novel could be named as a collection of short stories. But still it would fail to impress I could assure you.
The story describes a guy working and earning lakhs at wall street and suddenly wants to come back to India to find its roots. That’s really a gesture to salute. But then story stops entertaining you. The usual Indian masala is missing. The student is locked in IIM Bangalore campus and what he describes is the education system in and out . Whats big deal in that?
I was actually expecting the hurdles he had to face … rather then describing the education system in India.
I’, really wondering how he manged to get his work published.
I would end my review by only saying “Congratulations on your first book…Mr Bajaj!!!”
Suddenly I feel, I really dont have a problem... people have a bigger problems than me and I crib and keep on wasting my energy in solving my own problem.Waste I m !!!
Why are nights and mornings so beautiful?
Dont know.... but the early morning birds chirping and cool breeze with a bit of sunshine, feels nice. And the nights...silent nights with stars and moon light...dark as it could be makes it even more sexier!!
ये सपनो की आहट में
छन छन का स्वर क्यूँ हैं
उन मधुर सी कल्पनाओं का
हम पर सुरूर क्यूँ हैं
अनजान सी पहेली बुनती हूँ
उन आकृतियों में खुद को ढूद्ती हूँ
शब्द नहीं होते यहाँ
बस कुछ लकीरों का साथ होता हैं
इस विचित्र सी दुनिया में
कही कोई हमराज़ भी होता हैं
Why don't we get it until we dream it?
Why is life so nice in dreams and so hard in real?
Why is life meaningless without a dream?
Why is life so happening and challenging with a dream?
Why human turn to animal for there single dream?
Why some dreams are shattered and some achive great heights?
Holidays are about to end.... yes the saddest part of life is that nothing is constant!! I'll miss my "rajai"... ginger tea..... sitting in sun for hours and listening to auntie's and colony gossip.
But some good things are waiting for me, so need to pack up from here.
My 2010 clebration was short and sweet!!! On 31st night I decided to prepare cake for parents (which was actually for me in the name of parents), at about 10 o clock it was ready, mom went to sleep before that as she was very tired. My father and me.... no no... I only cut the cake and gave one piece to my father and had two pieces for myself. And by 10:30 I was there on my bed, buried deep under my rajai!!!
So finally new year has come!!! Another year .... would be surely fun to chase it....
Best of luck too all... and once again HAPPY NEW YEAR